I have always had deep
need for community, it has been an embarrassing need especially as I have been
painfully shy in my life at times.
This need, has led me
to live on 3 communes, sit next to strangers at parties and mumble incoherent
words in hope of sparking some connection, it has me offering out my things and
time and skills, it has me going to neighbourhood courses, hosting felting
days, putting on birthing-ways and sending out signals via all the many ways I
can, it has led me to write a blog and have a presence on facebook, it has me
dreaming of creating markets and gatherings, meditation groups and link ups,
it’s a strong energy in me and largely unmanifest due to my strangeness and as
I said shyness.
As I grew into my
spirit, there was many woman elders who have helped me and sheltered me in
those growing girl times of need, but in the last few years as a woman… there
has been a lack for me, of a nourishing community.
I have grown into my
family so very well; we are close and connected beyond my highest hopes. I am
rather fulfilled, more than I ever thought I could be, yet I have longed for
sisterhood in my life, where relationships can bloom in true acceptance for the
journey each individual is on.
I have had a romantic
notion, that one day I would be a part of a wise woman’s circle, where
individuals and the group as a whole, could evolve safely, with out judgement and
with gentle openness, for being the people that we are.
A strong circle of
woman becoming wise… In my imaginings it would be cast at night under a full
moon, we would move together, through the trees to a clearing, we would each
bring our own medicine and share wine, stories and dance raising energy,
shaking out the restraints of the ordinary, becoming more than our usual role,…
super natural women.
I never gave up on
this dream…
I feel like I am
finally coming to a circle, sharing something of beauty with fellow travellers
on life’s road, I will be attending Laurens intuitive heart sanctuary, it will
begin on the 25th of June, a few days before the Capricorn full
moon, my moon and I will sit at my desk with my heart and mind open, moon rays penetrating
my being, and discover what there is to discover.
Won’t you join us beautiful
woman, in a sacred circle time, join Lauren as she brings us together and
facilitates a space for us to grow… you know I would love to see you there…
This is the link to the sanctuary.
And this is the link
to this brave, beautiful and generous being… Lauren Luquin
And in unrelated but highly appropriate poetry, I share with you this poem that I am feeling very into at the moment...
Charge of the Star Goddess
I who am the beauty of the green earth
And the white moon among the stars
And the mysteries of the waters,
I call upon your soul to arise and come
unto me.
For I am the soul of nature that gives
life to the universe.
From Me all things proceed and unto Me
they must return.
Let my worship be in the heart that
rejoices, for behold-
All acts of love and pleasure are My
rituals.
Let there be beauty and strength, power
and compassion,
Honor and humility, mirth and reverence
within you.
And you who seek to know Me, know that
your
Seeking and yearning will avail you not,
unless
You know the Mystery:
For if that which you seek, you find not
within yourself,
You will never find it without.
For behold, I have been with you from the
beginning,
And I am that which is attained at the end of desire
Starhawk

I think you are just wonderful... I'll see you there.
ReplyDeleteThis poem has been one of my favorites for a long time, it is beautiful.xxx
I agree with Trish, and I'm a comin along too:) The urge to get to know you better and share a sacred circle with you is irresistable. I was so much more witchy in my 20's, it was a brand new language for me and so very empowering, and then other things happened, as they do, and I drifted off into other ways of being and philosophies. And then with the birth of all my babies I came to the realisation that the very biggest magic I'd ever done, was pushing these babies down my birth canal, and weaving a life that would fulfill them, and spinning yarns both physical and metaphoric to create a lifestyle, and donning clothes that made me feel special, and having sacred conversations with everyone I met.........
ReplyDeleteBut. The magic is so strong now, and so well used, and I find myself reading what you've written above and a melancholy whisper from across the years is reminding me of the women I circled with, and what we did there, and that spark and splash of the otherworld that we created together.
I love how you write, and what you share, and I feel like every time you write another layer peels away from the budding rose that is you, and I like it :)
I can relate to being shy too, though my shyness manifests in ways that can sometimes be hard to notice....